This past week has been probably the best week I have ever had. I’m starting to really find myself especially with my wonderful boyfriend by my side. He has helped me open so many new doors in my life and I don’t know where I’d be if not for him. Now working two full time jobs has really made me open my eyes and experience what it’s like to really grow up. I am now working at the middle school as a one to one aid with a boy who is autistic and I love my job so much it is so rewarding to me. And I am still working nights at my salon. Working almost 60 hour weeks takes a lot out of me but it makes me feel so accomplished. I am able to put so much money in the bank and save up to eventually move out which I really want to do very soon. I feel like I really am growing as a person and bettering myself. I now know who I really am and that is the greatest feeling in the world. I am so incredibly happy with where my life is going and I’m hoping to only see my self go up from here. And I couldn’t do all this without my wonderful friends, my beyond supportive mother, and my wonderful boyfriend. And I love them all. I can’t remember the last time I was this happy.
Yo life is weird man
If someone told me this is where I’d be a year ago I’d say yeah fucking right. But damn don’t even know if I’m content or really fucking bored.
It’s more fufilling to me to have moved on from a really shitty experience and to have found someone who treats me so well and is so honest and kind to me and cares about me so much. I don’t really take pleasure in seeing anyone’s life turn into garbage and if anything I think its sad that things didn’t work out as well for her as they did for me.
This is hilarious 😂
Thinking about things for the first time tonight. I’m not really sure I know how to feel. I’m so numb to everything around me. I feel cold and heartless. And I don’t know what love is.